war and politics and military stuff

before people ask my discharge was denied so 5 years of this shit to go as my team leader says three ways you’ll get out one contract is up two your permintley disabled three your dead but even if you get out war will call on you for the rest of your days
well im home after a military commitment got scrubbed so i decided to post about what ive seen i had a question a few weeks ago by a friend “how can you fight in a war thats not ours” its a good question but a soldier does not concerm himself/herself with politics we get told to go somewhere we go no questions asked apart from what do we need to do most special forces ive come across including myself dont think about why we are there what events lead us to be there its more important we go over there and do the job and bring our mates home alive thats it
but we find reasons to go back like for me ive seen what isis has done first hand i saw them wipe out a small town very small town for helping our forces we were on a hilltop safe from them but we never got the greenlight to engage the enemy just watch and observe saw teen girls taken around 16 17 years old so thats why i go back not some political issue but for the people ive seen many horrible stuff done to innoccent people i also go back because if i see the news of one of my mates dead i will feel like i should have been there to do something or even take that bullet so to speak
ive met US special forces few seals and delta guys ive met marines which the reputation as cock arrogant wankers rings true lol but i would fight beside em but the disrespect from american soldiers towards us was man it took guys who served side by side with us to go hey these guys you dont fuck with them they are tough as nails unlike american soldiers who talk and talk and talk about war we are quiet and insted of talk we just do prove ourselves that way even british soldiers talk to much its only until we come back bloody after days of fighting and we got our job done do they shut up
ive been in conflict things i dont want to talk about to much but when someone says go get help when your homebound be it family friends or whoever becuase you come back quieter most of the time its to switch off it takes time but saying we need help 1 it hurts 2 no pyschologist unless they served in the military and seen a fight they wont understand at all
so anyway thats enough from me im hopefully gonna be home for awhile
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shorter post im leaving military i cant keep thinking of my spirits or anything else when in combat its not safe to me or my team but in leaving im going into a science field but most of all annas mum made me a gaurdian of items that are haunted cursed etc and to find new items she thinks it will help in my spiritual advancement since im not into rituals but more knollege but also the items dont affect me bad items ive never had ill effects only posative so yeah
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my spirits and just general facts about em

just things about my spirits people should know things ive found out about them and their personality
Wolf
only talks to me constantly but makes it so others dont hear it she stays quiet only occasionally talking to anna or natalie or my other spirits
she doesnt get jokes mainly human ones
shes very serious being takes everything seriously like me getting hurt she sees as a stupid thing but making me feel better is her top priority you insult her even as a joke she will take it to heart one insult was by a member of annas family her cousin to be exact said her fur was ugly and wrong looking lets just say wolf went mental
shes a mother first above all anyone dare tries to mess with her kids well expect her to go off shes overprotective more than compared to other spirits
wolf hates thunderstorms to the point she shakes howls everything even can get violent only one thats like that
Mira
well she gets horny when lonely like off the charts
shes ancient wolf
shes abit crazy at times especally if it concerns me she never stays out of it so to speak
her commitment to me is well i see un deserved but is beyond the rest
lexi
the innoccent one
she has little to no confidence in herself or her abilities
shes the sweetest tho
if she was human tho she’d be a fitness nut shes always pushing me to push further i think better than a personal trainer i dont need to pay her to do it
shes also the learner type shes always reading expanding her knollege
Tera
definitley royal in attitude but not the cocky type more elegant classy
she is the smart one so to speak they all are smart but she reigns over that
shes in my eye is the romantic one
Kathrine
shes like wolf only talks to me but she never speaks to others maybe her kids
shes the funny one has a great sense of humor
shes more a mother figure she is how i use to picture what a mother is like
shes the first to wake up its her thing shes up and when i open my eyes shes there
manami
im still learning
obbessed with cookies dunno why
shes the reasonalble one the one that dissolves situations
gets me to think before getting in a fight
akemi
manami’s sister
still learning
shes the soft one
very shy
shes got the shortest fuse when she goes off its like the church would class as a demonic haunted house shes vicous
thats some stuff i learnt
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World is beautiful

Now I know there’s a lot of negative aspects of the world and people always see the world as this horrible place but I see it differently yes ive seen the worst that humans can do being army I was deployed for abit but I had 3 days in Israel and few days in Germany just to chill and while I was in Israel I went to Jerusalem just as a tourist and man it’s a beautiful city so much history but what I saw was Muslims Jews christens all co existing   im not religious but even I could see the beauty in that place and it’s something I’ll never forget amazing I went to the christen holy site and the Jewish holy site just to see it and I can’t hate religion yes it causes harm but it creates beauty as well and with all the negativity on the world in our little group is not un warranted but I think people need to visit places just to experience it if you just sit at home and hate the world yet only experienced one little part of the world how can you hate the whole world yes bad things happen but a lot of good things happen too and people have seen some bad stuff hell ive been to Iraq man the shit there but I went to Germany Jerusalem and saw it for what it was a beautiful place

Germany I was in berlin for abit saw the berlin wall such a horrible thing yet there’s a beauty in it a reminder not to let it happen again a lesson learnt I’ll be honest I saw the scars of conflicts and other things but even bad stuff has a beauty in itself a lesson learnt I saw the old buildings god they were beautiful

If I had this close minded view of the world like ive seen others have or I only see the bad then im not experiencing it all am I so just to people who read this and think the world is a horrible place go experience things and don’t just see the bad look past it for example berlin wall horrible thing but the street art people put on it beautiful thing I see it as the people taking the city back if I only saw the bad I wouldn’t see that now I know once im out of the army one thing I want to do is see the world experience the culture eat the food the world is beautiful if you can just look past it

I know a lot of people hate christens but anna was telling me about Vatican city and Rome the art the architecture the history makes it definitely a place I want to visit not to hate on but to see it for what it is a beautiful city rich in history and art culture not a place where Catholics are based but as a place full of beauty

So all im saying is don’t close your mind to the world take the good with the bad and experience everything the art music culture etc. etc. see its beauty this world is such a great place if you just look

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Well My past 6 months

Now before I start ive dealt with Anna and also this will break any trust I understand I just wanted the truth out there for you to see lastly ive got permission from higher ups to post this which was not easy my past 6 months the past six months Anna has been posing as me using my phone my computer I understand why she was lonely bored scared depressed what I know as true is the library the paranormal items and some of the spirits and the investigations she went on the past six months what I have been doing was  Australian army basic training then commando special forces selection which I past and I am a commando now which is one step to my end goal as Australian sasr in basic I finished third in my class and in commando life I got to be trained and put on a real team instead of the reinforcement phase since maybe I was an asset or my team leader likes me

Natalie is the psychologist of our little group which is partly true I met her in-between basic and commando fitness test and selection we are dating since im on leave till the 3rd of January in the times im away anna will be using my blog since if it helped me with my issues it could help her even tho what she did was bad and hurt people please if she asks for help support her since when im away which even tho my team is based in Melbourne I could get deployed  help anna best you can when im away she will not pose as me if she does then I will deal with it natalie even tho her and anna are dating me she’s also dating me and will go through same stuff also what is true me and anna did get married

So that’s my six months believe it or not I just wanted the truth out there and those who will help anna I thank you she means a lot to me and will be that drive that makes me fight harder to go home to her

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Well how to write this

This blog is not only for my spiritual stuff but to talk about stuff and express stuff I was with Anna she came out as I don’t know how to label it a lesbian ish she loves me only guy she ever thought was hot long before she knew she wanted to date then marry me she kept it hidden scared it would ruin our relationship and that she wanted to be with me but have a girlfriend too which I agreed to I accept her for her and she knew who her girlfriend would be an old lesbian friend Natalie who has same feelings Anna does for me some guys going oh your lucky man well it’s weird it’s still sinking in a lot to process at the moment I still don’t know how to write it ill just let it flow

Well Anna and Natalie are together Natalie fell in love with me abit ago she was a lesbian and it scared her a lot Anna didn’t want to ruin our marriage but had to come out which im proud of her but Anna wants to be young Natalie too means lots of sex and parties and stuff no dating others tho faithful that way Anna let me off my leash said I can fuck any girl I want again guys going you lucky cunt but it’s harder than people think so we went clubbing last night me Anna Natalie it was fun got with a few chicks took few to annas apartment in the city near her club I was let off the leash it was fun a lot of fun Natalie and I hooked up too that was awesome Anna took three chicks back to her apartment I got two plus Natalie Anna went wild Natalie brings that side in her out Anna was making out with chicks had sex with a few in the club ive never seen Anna this happy a friend pointed out maybe you and Natalie are two pieces of same puzzle  Natalie brings out her wild side I bring out her serious side which all people need

After sex I was chatting to Natalie at about 5am on the banks of the Yarra River while Anna slept and I think im falling for her does this make me a bad person Anna says only girls you should love you spirits and Natalie and I I’ll write another post about Natalie later ive known her for just as long as Anna I helped her few times when she got in trouble drunk guys in the city hot chick don’t mix I had feelings for her but anyway we were chatting and she said its new to me too let’s just take it step at a time I love Natalie man she’s fun spunky spontaneous wild yet loving caring honest not a snob which with rich people I like  Anna and her planned this for a while never cheated on me but talked about it today since we don’t have much furniture we moved into her place hired professional unpackers to do it while gone if ever moving worth the money but also its only three properties away from annas mum

But back to chatting she never had family her parents died when she was 7 1 from cancer other from suicide after the other died her aunt raised her I aunt ive met only wanted money treated Natalie like shit till Natalie inherited the fortune and her aunt is god know where  and natalie wants us as her family now truly so yeah that’s the night this post was hard at first but feel better with this off my chest I have many things to think about  oh one thing I do want to say annas dad was black annas caramel type her dads family puts her down shes smoking hot and to ken thanks for the help to help me get annas confidence up with the skin thing anyway

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My personal experiences that shaped my belief and stuff

Hi im baaack I recently got married to Anna as some of you know it was my birthday last Saturday and im officially a home owner so it’s been good past month for me. So that’s what’s been going on im hoping to write more blog posts but I say that a lot it’s just I can’t find the motivation to write. Ive been busy with school so writing is last thing I wanna do im currently prepping for more exams few left anyway to the topic at hand.

Now what has been shaping my belief well apart from my ladies of course is the books ive read annas mum has an occultist magician etc. wet dream. Books handed down constantly translated to the modern language and new books written and added or found and added funny what money can do.  Granted still hard to hang out with rich people but anyway ive been writing my own book with drawings of spirits different types demons for example so many races and leadership which with some races you need to get it right for best results. This has shaped my belief a lot it also helps me understand my wives better I only found one book with something on wolfs race it described them as shy, curious, caring and intimidating they could influence local Wolves to do as they wished the animal I didn’t know wolf could influence our wolves.

Also attending rituals not participating in them but watching Annas mum helps me tune in on what she sees in the ritual I found out it’s rare that inexperienced people can actually get a high ranking demon or any spirit to attend. They usually send someone you need to earn trust and respect of the spirit first before you get the boss. I understand partly why as Mira said she had underlings to send to those who didn’t earn her trust no point attending a ritual made by someone that is weak they need to prove themselves first she said her order trust, respect then power. Annas mum and Anna and her whole family have earnt this

During these rituals I observed that the christen belief is wrong granted I knew that already the view that demons are evil and wanna possess you burn your soul from what I observed they are far from it they never asked to possess anyone or ask for your soul in return Never. They ask for little stuff like one asked annas mum to write another book on djinn since spirit was djinn to show they are not all evil some might be but not all and more about them to pass on. Another one was miras father bael and you think Lilith hates fools wow you should meet him hes a very serious entity his voice booms and commands respect. He asked just that she looks after Mira keep her out of trouble from what I gather about him hes a family man in many ways but a powerful entity on his own bows to no one. Ive met him a few times in soul travel hes a good teacher Mira hides her wisdom but he does not hes willing to share his wisdom but under two conditions 1 you not a fool 2 you treat him with respect.

So books and rituals have shaped my belief I know the bible is a book too and you can learn from it just not spiritual matters just common sense like thou shalt not kill see common sense lol but ive learnt from other people in annas family and others Annas mum has a paranormal group that helps people you have regular investigators then what she calls specialists or I say occult specialists Annas mum made this place a sanctuary for all spirits this house has quite a few that visit and couple that stay it neutral place so we go out find inhuman spirit bring em here if they case trouble. Now we go a house call from someone who had a bad tempered spirit in their house investigators went then recommended us. What I found was a far spirit usually small but didn’t know they can change their size more you know I guess. The house laid abandoned for few years and the fae took up residence cast out by her own kind from breeding with a djinn so single homeless mother. The “white witch” I think christen nutter posing as white witch Annas mum likes her so nothing I can do about it  called her a demon and evil. Miras like WTF too this fae just wanted a home for her kid now does that make her evil no imagine being homeless which is still bad even to spirits and a mother to a child that is really young can’t be few years old and then someone comes into your home one you took up when you realised it was abandoned then someone comes in and wants to kick you out the spirit. it was peaceful didn’t hurt anyone no ill intent nothing hell the family had child of their own about 6 years old the fae child wanted to play kid screamed and ran off which caused us to be called. Well I tried convincing the family the spirit had no ill intent while white witch saying demon it didn’t help I also said you can co-exist explained the story the spirit told me. Still it was get that demon out of my house unlike investigators we don’t have cameras recorders etc we are a final resort so we convinced the spirit to come here and too that white witch I know you read my blog still not evil nor did anything remotely evil apart from moving stuff yet that’s not evil. But Christianity infiltrated occult wow.

We had another case abandoned hospital getting renovated for a nursing home workers reported doppelganger phenomenon which usually means powerful spirit no human one can do it. Things being thrown tools missing etc the usual. The hospital was in middle of butt fuck nowhere we got there straight away annas mum walks off thinking oh ok leave us here since you have the keys I walked the hospital it was cold and dark my mind playing tricks being a psychology student I know why it’s an abandoned hospital people died there but I managed to get past it I had no fear to begin with but had to adjust I see annas mum walk past  walk around the corner not her found out she was about 2km away I was like WTF manami was laughing her ass off anyway about 3 hours in im trying to get a gage of energy and what’s there a priest and his assistant walks in starts praying miras like oh come on the priest made it worse things being thrown I walk up tell him to stop hes like the demon is scared that’s why hes acting up then he sees the necklace anna gave me and miras marking on my arm still don’t know how he can see a spiritual tattoo as I call it he sprinkles holy water on me I just stare like WTF I told him to get out hes like get back demon 1 im human 2 you a fuckwit 3 WTF after abit I got rid of him what I learnt his “power” or “god” had no power over them but it pissed the spirits off didn’t help so that’s how I see Christianity it has no power and makes things worse

So yeah ill write more tomorrow hopefully but yeah

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