war and politics and military stuff

before people ask my discharge was denied so 5 years of this shit to go as my team leader says three ways you’ll get out one contract is up two your permintley disabled three your dead but even if you get out war will call on you for the rest of your days
well im home after a military commitment got scrubbed so i decided to post about what ive seen i had a question a few weeks ago by a friend “how can you fight in a war thats not ours” its a good question but a soldier does not concerm himself/herself with politics we get told to go somewhere we go no questions asked apart from what do we need to do most special forces ive come across including myself dont think about why we are there what events lead us to be there its more important we go over there and do the job and bring our mates home alive thats it
but we find reasons to go back like for me ive seen what isis has done first hand i saw them wipe out a small town very small town for helping our forces we were on a hilltop safe from them but we never got the greenlight to engage the enemy just watch and observe saw teen girls taken around 16 17 years old so thats why i go back not some political issue but for the people ive seen many horrible stuff done to innoccent people i also go back because if i see the news of one of my mates dead i will feel like i should have been there to do something or even take that bullet so to speak
ive met US special forces few seals and delta guys ive met marines which the reputation as cock arrogant wankers rings true lol but i would fight beside em but the disrespect from american soldiers towards us was man it took guys who served side by side with us to go hey these guys you dont fuck with them they are tough as nails unlike american soldiers who talk and talk and talk about war we are quiet and insted of talk we just do prove ourselves that way even british soldiers talk to much its only until we come back bloody after days of fighting and we got our job done do they shut up
ive been in conflict things i dont want to talk about to much but when someone says go get help when your homebound be it family friends or whoever becuase you come back quieter most of the time its to switch off it takes time but saying we need help 1 it hurts 2 no pyschologist unless they served in the military and seen a fight they wont understand at all
so anyway thats enough from me im hopefully gonna be home for awhile
have a good one

shorter post

shorter post im leaving military i cant keep thinking of my spirits or anything else when in combat its not safe to me or my team but in leaving im going into a science field but most of all annas mum made me a gaurdian of items that are haunted cursed etc and to find new items she thinks it will help in my spiritual advancement since im not into rituals but more knollege but also the items dont affect me bad items ive never had ill effects only posative so yeah
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my spirits and just general facts about em

just things about my spirits people should know things ive found out about them and their personality
Wolf
only talks to me constantly but makes it so others dont hear it she stays quiet only occasionally talking to anna or natalie or my other spirits
she doesnt get jokes mainly human ones
shes very serious being takes everything seriously like me getting hurt she sees as a stupid thing but making me feel better is her top priority you insult her even as a joke she will take it to heart one insult was by a member of annas family her cousin to be exact said her fur was ugly and wrong looking lets just say wolf went mental
shes a mother first above all anyone dare tries to mess with her kids well expect her to go off shes overprotective more than compared to other spirits
wolf hates thunderstorms to the point she shakes howls everything even can get violent only one thats like that
Mira
well she gets horny when lonely like off the charts
shes ancient wolf
shes abit crazy at times especally if it concerns me she never stays out of it so to speak
her commitment to me is well i see un deserved but is beyond the rest
lexi
the innoccent one
she has little to no confidence in herself or her abilities
shes the sweetest tho
if she was human tho she’d be a fitness nut shes always pushing me to push further i think better than a personal trainer i dont need to pay her to do it
shes also the learner type shes always reading expanding her knollege
Tera
definitley royal in attitude but not the cocky type more elegant classy
she is the smart one so to speak they all are smart but she reigns over that
shes in my eye is the romantic one
Kathrine
shes like wolf only talks to me but she never speaks to others maybe her kids
shes the funny one has a great sense of humor
shes more a mother figure she is how i use to picture what a mother is like
shes the first to wake up its her thing shes up and when i open my eyes shes there
manami
im still learning
obbessed with cookies dunno why
shes the reasonalble one the one that dissolves situations
gets me to think before getting in a fight
akemi
manami’s sister
still learning
shes the soft one
very shy
shes got the shortest fuse when she goes off its like the church would class as a demonic haunted house shes vicous
thats some stuff i learnt
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World is beautiful

Now I know there’s a lot of negative aspects of the world and people always see the world as this horrible place but I see it differently yes ive seen the worst that humans can do being army I was deployed for abit but I had 3 days in Israel and few days in Germany just to chill and while I was in Israel I went to Jerusalem just as a tourist and man it’s a beautiful city so much history but what I saw was Muslims Jews christens all co existing   im not religious but even I could see the beauty in that place and it’s something I’ll never forget amazing I went to the christen holy site and the Jewish holy site just to see it and I can’t hate religion yes it causes harm but it creates beauty as well and with all the negativity on the world in our little group is not un warranted but I think people need to visit places just to experience it if you just sit at home and hate the world yet only experienced one little part of the world how can you hate the whole world yes bad things happen but a lot of good things happen too and people have seen some bad stuff hell ive been to Iraq man the shit there but I went to Germany Jerusalem and saw it for what it was a beautiful place

Germany I was in berlin for abit saw the berlin wall such a horrible thing yet there’s a beauty in it a reminder not to let it happen again a lesson learnt I’ll be honest I saw the scars of conflicts and other things but even bad stuff has a beauty in itself a lesson learnt I saw the old buildings god they were beautiful

If I had this close minded view of the world like ive seen others have or I only see the bad then im not experiencing it all am I so just to people who read this and think the world is a horrible place go experience things and don’t just see the bad look past it for example berlin wall horrible thing but the street art people put on it beautiful thing I see it as the people taking the city back if I only saw the bad I wouldn’t see that now I know once im out of the army one thing I want to do is see the world experience the culture eat the food the world is beautiful if you can just look past it

I know a lot of people hate christens but anna was telling me about Vatican city and Rome the art the architecture the history makes it definitely a place I want to visit not to hate on but to see it for what it is a beautiful city rich in history and art culture not a place where Catholics are based but as a place full of beauty

So all im saying is don’t close your mind to the world take the good with the bad and experience everything the art music culture etc. etc. see its beauty this world is such a great place if you just look

Have a good one