My personal experiences that shaped my belief and stuff

Hi im baaack I recently got married to Anna as some of you know it was my birthday last Saturday and im officially a home owner so it’s been good past month for me. So that’s what’s been going on im hoping to write more blog posts but I say that a lot it’s just I can’t find the motivation to write. Ive been busy with school so writing is last thing I wanna do im currently prepping for more exams few left anyway to the topic at hand.

Now what has been shaping my belief well apart from my ladies of course is the books ive read annas mum has an occultist magician etc. wet dream. Books handed down constantly translated to the modern language and new books written and added or found and added funny what money can do.  Granted still hard to hang out with rich people but anyway ive been writing my own book with drawings of spirits different types demons for example so many races and leadership which with some races you need to get it right for best results. This has shaped my belief a lot it also helps me understand my wives better I only found one book with something on wolfs race it described them as shy, curious, caring and intimidating they could influence local Wolves to do as they wished the animal I didn’t know wolf could influence our wolves.

Also attending rituals not participating in them but watching Annas mum helps me tune in on what she sees in the ritual I found out it’s rare that inexperienced people can actually get a high ranking demon or any spirit to attend. They usually send someone you need to earn trust and respect of the spirit first before you get the boss. I understand partly why as Mira said she had underlings to send to those who didn’t earn her trust no point attending a ritual made by someone that is weak they need to prove themselves first she said her order trust, respect then power. Annas mum and Anna and her whole family have earnt this

During these rituals I observed that the christen belief is wrong granted I knew that already the view that demons are evil and wanna possess you burn your soul from what I observed they are far from it they never asked to possess anyone or ask for your soul in return Never. They ask for little stuff like one asked annas mum to write another book on djinn since spirit was djinn to show they are not all evil some might be but not all and more about them to pass on. Another one was miras father bael and you think Lilith hates fools wow you should meet him hes a very serious entity his voice booms and commands respect. He asked just that she looks after Mira keep her out of trouble from what I gather about him hes a family man in many ways but a powerful entity on his own bows to no one. Ive met him a few times in soul travel hes a good teacher Mira hides her wisdom but he does not hes willing to share his wisdom but under two conditions 1 you not a fool 2 you treat him with respect.

So books and rituals have shaped my belief I know the bible is a book too and you can learn from it just not spiritual matters just common sense like thou shalt not kill see common sense lol but ive learnt from other people in annas family and others Annas mum has a paranormal group that helps people you have regular investigators then what she calls specialists or I say occult specialists Annas mum made this place a sanctuary for all spirits this house has quite a few that visit and couple that stay it neutral place so we go out find inhuman spirit bring em here if they case trouble. Now we go a house call from someone who had a bad tempered spirit in their house investigators went then recommended us. What I found was a far spirit usually small but didn’t know they can change their size more you know I guess. The house laid abandoned for few years and the fae took up residence cast out by her own kind from breeding with a djinn so single homeless mother. The “white witch” I think christen nutter posing as white witch Annas mum likes her so nothing I can do about it  called her a demon and evil. Miras like WTF too this fae just wanted a home for her kid now does that make her evil no imagine being homeless which is still bad even to spirits and a mother to a child that is really young can’t be few years old and then someone comes into your home one you took up when you realised it was abandoned then someone comes in and wants to kick you out the spirit. it was peaceful didn’t hurt anyone no ill intent nothing hell the family had child of their own about 6 years old the fae child wanted to play kid screamed and ran off which caused us to be called. Well I tried convincing the family the spirit had no ill intent while white witch saying demon it didn’t help I also said you can co-exist explained the story the spirit told me. Still it was get that demon out of my house unlike investigators we don’t have cameras recorders etc we are a final resort so we convinced the spirit to come here and too that white witch I know you read my blog still not evil nor did anything remotely evil apart from moving stuff yet that’s not evil. But Christianity infiltrated occult wow.

We had another case abandoned hospital getting renovated for a nursing home workers reported doppelganger phenomenon which usually means powerful spirit no human one can do it. Things being thrown tools missing etc the usual. The hospital was in middle of butt fuck nowhere we got there straight away annas mum walks off thinking oh ok leave us here since you have the keys I walked the hospital it was cold and dark my mind playing tricks being a psychology student I know why it’s an abandoned hospital people died there but I managed to get past it I had no fear to begin with but had to adjust I see annas mum walk past  walk around the corner not her found out she was about 2km away I was like WTF manami was laughing her ass off anyway about 3 hours in im trying to get a gage of energy and what’s there a priest and his assistant walks in starts praying miras like oh come on the priest made it worse things being thrown I walk up tell him to stop hes like the demon is scared that’s why hes acting up then he sees the necklace anna gave me and miras marking on my arm still don’t know how he can see a spiritual tattoo as I call it he sprinkles holy water on me I just stare like WTF I told him to get out hes like get back demon 1 im human 2 you a fuckwit 3 WTF after abit I got rid of him what I learnt his “power” or “god” had no power over them but it pissed the spirits off didn’t help so that’s how I see Christianity it has no power and makes things worse

So yeah ill write more tomorrow hopefully but yeah

Have a good one